Renn's Space

I'm a little tired but I figure, let's write some bullshit hehe.

I don't usually have dreams, although it seems like they usually occur when I either get 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep or when I'm in a state of being like 3/4 of the way into deep sleep.

I dunno why, but it's interesting, by uninterrupted I mean like emotionally too. I have to be calm with little anxiety. As for the 3/4 case, I noticed that even though I have aphantasia, it lessens and allows me to exert greater control over my mind? I dunno if that's the right word, but when I'm tired I can see things and hear things as I will without much difficulty.

Another thing I noticed is that I'm never alone in my dreams, there's always someone with me.

The contents of my dreams vary but they always involve some type of disaster or escaping. Typing it kinda worries me lol, that can't be normal. Here's an excerpt from a time I woke up and wrote down what happened

"I had a dream I was in a school and then suddenly this fairy creature we heard was roaming the school tearing people apart, so we hid me and a friend, reminded me of an old friend from high school.

Eventually we end up in the bathroom and this thing was violent there was 4 of us in the stalls and when it got to the other 2 it burst open the door and took them away, when it got to me I pressed myself against the door so it opened with me behind it, it seems like the creature was stupid, then it left and then my friend came out of the other stall. 

We made our way back to our homeroom class where we decided to go home, we lived near each other and we heard from the other classmates the fairy was going around the entire school.

So we bolted out and it was somehow night and snowing."

One of the reoccurring dreams takes place at the building I used to live before we moved.

The building was divided into the left and right parts and there was a underground maintenance hall that you can use to go between them without having to go through the main lobby.

In that hall there was an entrance to some tunnels, and overall the building felt like it could fall apart in the dream.

Back then I lived on the 5th floor, and in the dream my fear of the other floors was made very apparent because they were fucking creepy. In the dream I went to the 6th floor and the lights were dimmer and there was strange noises, I hid in the elevator until it took me back to the 5th floor.

In another dream there was a massive earthquake and many natural disasters, I remember trying to save my brother but I failed. 

I don't know why all my dreams are scary but I hope one day I'll maybe figure it out. But if it's the case that they'll always be like that, I guess I'm glad I don't have them often lol.

That's all for today, may the person reading this have a blessed day.